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Thursday, 24 September 2009

a year later

a year later
as i read how this xanga started and ended i felt like my life has been just different
I for one can not understand how i use to write before. Life has definitely changed since 2008. So a year later 2009 January found out I was pregnant. February got my first ultra sound. March 18th birthday. April told my mom I was pregnant. May continued with life. June 1 year anniversary officially being together. July baby shower. August Early delivery. September to current living the life as a mother of a beautiful girl named Kaliegh Annnaliza. Of course this was a short list of what happend through out the year. If I were to explain it all I would need 5 years worth of paper to explain it all. I've had a lot of problems that I had to deal with. Though I really think that I am doing the best that I can. I really love my daughter so much. She is now my life, my importance, my everything.
I just decided to write in this xanga not for people to read just because i know no one reads it any way. I decided to write in here just to try to release some pain.
I cant continue typing just cause its hard to deal with what I had to go through tonight.
but this time I am going to prove to him that I am deffinetly a different person that he can not just push around. Try me but its not easy to forgive. because now i have something to hold on to, to eaze my pain. She makes me a lot stronger.
All i need him to do is prove me wrong is it that hard, because he knows no matter what i love him

THE END

Thursday, 30 October 2008

uhhhh whats new

im nervous excited hopefully getting a bonus on my check tomorow

soooooo finally maybe going to get a phone=]

lets all hope

life wise working two jobs still in independent studies

victor still my adorable monkey

my mom yeahhh still got those issues.

whats neww.. =] nada mas

Saturday, 20 September 2008

mymonkey

its been so long since i last wrote in this and life got harder easier harder sadder and so on.
my monkey is still victor
we've been fighting crying yelling smileing laughing so much
but i still love him and always will

he's my monkey my baby my boooyyy friend
everyone in work knows it... even people i dont know... knows it...

lifes never been better, harder but better

soooo i do really love him =]

for so long... he's my life my monkey my boy my baby my husband hahaha

Sunday, 20 July 2008

almost 2months

its been such a while since the last time i ever blogged on this thing
but for real so much has happen since then.. buhhh as i read the last blog its almost the same as now.
im still with this looser that i truly love that i dont think any one is ever gonna understand..
butttt it all may change tomorow if the mistake i made that i owned up to... if that guy lies to him and to my face i might just hit him.
i love my looser my boy... my baby.. im always gonna be by his side no matter what happens between us. only god. will no that im not lieing to him...
and i believe that god.. wont let him believe lies. gahhhh...
well... im still enganged kinda lol... with this dork.. work gets pretty interesting just cause everyone knows were kinda together... well confusing much lol. i dont know what i would do if i didnt have my looser. my dork. my boy
he's my life. i love him ooo so much. thats why it tears my heart out when we get to fights... and almost just end it all... i cant and i wont let him... cause i love him to much.. i would do anything for him.. but he would do the same for me? huh.. yeahh well.. about dat..
on another kinda note. i got a 84.9 in summer school bio lol. (thanks alexis haha)
buhhh for reall.. this week alone was one hard week for me.buhhh i know god has a better plan for me... and that plan i know continues with victor. because within a year he put that smile on my face that can never be taken away.. i cant stress my self anymore im going to have to put it in the fate of god.
i miss my dadie.. aww.
i love him dork...enough said...=]
i hope things change and work out tomorow i dont wanna cry anymore because people are gonna lie you know..
ilovemyfuture
that has him in it.
day we met 10/28/07
06/04/08 officialy got together.buhhh along we were together..

Wednesday, 21 May 2008

how wtf

so lets start this blog with a happy note lol
i finally saw junie gahhh first time in hela llong i hela missed this girl me and her always had this thing that kep us stuck together
today i really hated it but i deserve it
gahhh... wtf im hela dumb how far can me being dumb be lol
"why are you romantica"? probably the only funny possitive thing my dear dorky boyfriend.

i dont want to say anything
because i've been so happy. and
really i dont want people to know that im sad and that im hurting
but it really does hurt so badd.

i cant say everything that im feeling.. because all i would here is "whatttt?" fo real ithough he was such a good guy... but gahhh it really just is testing us again....

all i can say is i hope he doesn't do anything that could bring him back their..
i just want him to be careful
put ta say. why is it that when i make a mistake its like the end of everything
but when i know he's makin a mistake he cant even own up to it. you know?

but watever im always wrong =/ it just is wat its been like forever... watever you know.
do i love this boy? yes
if i keep one going it just going to deppress me.

but i just had to end this on a note...
but i still love him because im gonna get married?